{PROLOGUE}

I hate and love the same stuff.
I'm probably just like you.
Only everything you're not.
Omg,does that even make sense?
Yes!

*loves:
{the rain
{the reflections
{the youth
{the agility
{the high
{the playgrounds

*loathes:
{plastics
{boot-lickers
{sister's watch
{back aches
{bugs

i don't ask for much but,
high-flier
bedroom decorations
certain japanese comics and series
baudelaire series
more mercy
promised good life

Afianne
Blogskins.com
Moargh.de
Romance Box
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November 2006[x] December 2006[x] January 2007[x] March 2007[x]

Quote of the day: "ALWAYS, begin with the End in mind :D"
Miss Yip said that about twenty thousand times during CME today ): So boring. Not even twenty years old and she's nagging like some old mama.

-guin.

Quote of the day: "Don't worry. God will forgive you."
Gahhhh...It must be the faeces in the rectum.

-mira.

Quote of the day: Mira sucks and everyone knows it :D

- dhash

12:11 AM

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OMG SO MANY THINGS TO DO AH.
TODAY IM GOING TO KILL SOMEONE.

Basically, im forced to blog today, by people.
Cant believe they keep bombarding me with qns
about my blog. I mean, where can i even find the time?
That's why im typing this in class.
He would never figure out anyway.

See, Guin's staring at my words.
"OI" yeah yeah.

Okay i have a lot to buck up.
My amath, emath, physics and chem
and yeah, quoting Guin "Practically Everything".

I have to do something about it.
I must do something about it.
I should do something about it.
I will do something about it.
I'm going to read my Lime Magazine.


Hee hee hee? Hee hee hee.



I've my guardian angel, I don't need any other dreams.

12:06 AM

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8:44 AM

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I LOVE MY LOSER <3
She's the best person to talk to when i've been bottling up.

Today, today after school i was fuming but now i'm fine (:
Poor table. It has done no wrong.
And i admire aqilah for her courage and sincerity.
Not many would go back and apologise, i swear.
And it wasn't even her fault that the table toppled upside down
with zhong jie's properties inside.

You go, aqilah!

Right now, i dont know whether it's my place, but i'm trying to
get the class a little more bonded, and i dont know how.
I wanna try designed shirt. again. so far 2 of my designs were out.
total defence. total defence. what in the world.

and oh my goodness im being selfish.

5:36 AM

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This is for the g1s who've put in all their efforts:

WE LOVE YOU MANY MANY!

Omg it was such a shock and this win has become a great start to kick off with the year!
I didnt wanna sleep to hold onto the moment but i was too tired (:
It was so heartwarming when our cheers were deafening and everyone's jumping for joy.
Sec ones enjoyed themselves very much. This batch of g1s are the most accomplished ones.
4 prizes , like that's whacked man! How cool!

And when we said "1G1 WE LOVE YOU!", they screamed as a class
"WE LOVE YOU TOO!" Cute, man!

And when i was perfecting their cheers before their performance i screamed at their faces
"If you dont believe in yourselves, dont even dream of winning first place"
And then after their performance, when the snrs and jrns were doing the three cheers,
I heard one of the sec ones saying to me,
"We believe in ourselves."

That's all i needed to hear from my little sisters of 1g1.
We're proud of you!

Tonight, i realised that i was wanted and appreciated really really.
I never realised that for fourteen years.
It's not like nobody told me that they appreciate me or that i have low self-esteem,
but sometimes people dont really mean what they say.
Or that when they say it, it's not like as if it's gonna really happen.
But now, it just felt like something so new. (:

And i love love love 2g1, i dont get it why we have to be seperated in sec 3.
I understand lah but the very thought of it is so unfair.
For a long time, 2g1 has always been together, it's like we dont really need anyone else.
Come sec 3 there are faces i really havent seen before althought they're my batch peers.
Which freaks me out. 3c3's fine. but 2g1's love.

So many 2g1's telling me that they wish we'll be together in the same class.
I feel the same way too.
But we'll always, always stay together come what may.

And the world is so beautiful tonight.

2:23 AM

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This is to Jeremy, who went through the toughest time anyone could have imagined, by counting down with me to the end of my birthday err.. day.

WAY TO GO!
STAY IN SCHOOL, DONT DO DRUGS.

8:08 AM

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This message was from Khaliesah:

this is something i wrote from the heart.
its not going to be great but i will just start.
we've always been just friends
just a hi and a bye
but now i feel
that there's a connection between you and i
we share the same childhood experiences.
we love the same songs.
we are both happy go lucky people.
but we too have our wrongs.
so now i just have to saythat i'm glad we got closer in someway
and on this very day
i'd just like to wish you a very happy birthday.

She tried sincerely.
That's what made it beautiful.
I love you lots, Khaliesah!!!

7:21 AM

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This message was from Khaliesah:

this is something i wrote from the heart.its not going to be great but i will just start.
we've always been just friendsjust a hi and a byebut now i feelthat there's a connection between you and i
we share the same childhood experiences.we love the same songs.we are both happy go lucky people.but we too have our wrongs.
so now i just have to saythat i'm glad we got closer in somewayand on this very dayi'd just like to wish you a very happy birthday.

She tried sincerely.
That's what made it beautiful.
I love you lots, Khaliesah!!!

7:21 AM

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A few more ticks till I hear the sound,
A symphony to the change of time;
But lets take this minute to recharge
What i know that's been mine.

This year I learnt aplenty,
Through joy and unwanted pain;
From different people from different corners,
And heres what ive gained:

Freedom equals trust
And trust means honesty
Honesty is linked with love
With that, comes loyalty.

No bond survives without sacrifice,
Sufferings promises a smile;
True friendship comes from sincerity,
We need that once in a while.

Misunderstandings takes you to an end
While independence helps you through
Short-changing adds to nothing
None knows best but you.

Never dream but make it happen,
Dont wait till its gone.
Cherish every single moment,
Like the melody of a song.

I grew stronger with every fall,
Making me who ive came to be.
But lets take a m inute to recharge;
Happy Birthday To Me.

2006 was a very beautiful year, i learnt so much.
That only means...2007 BRING IT ON.
This day , the weather was perfect, i feel fine.
I told my parents not to buy me anything at all - its my first time doing this.
I guess that since im growing up, i might as well be a little more independent.
Im saving money to buy what i want.
Funny, as i grow older, I feel younger and more refreshed.
When midnight came, i received about 14 messages of happy birthdays
and countless of happy new years. And to those 14, I really appreciate it
because i really didnt realise that much will come. Im touched, really.
But i have to say, the best love i received, other from my parents and 2 kisses from Dad,
was from, my friend, Gefrey.

They say there's no better gift than love and friendship.
This was what she wrote to me from the States:

It wasnt something that I thought was plausible
Words weren’t within my contemplation
Penning down a poem was far too a job of what I was not competent of
But I thought. After all it was for someone I valued immensely.
It wasnt about how I was going it put across
But rather of what I was going to put across.
Each word held its meaning right within its very own soul
And every single one was special in its own way.
And the reason beneath it, it was for my beloved friend.
Goners are gone out of my reality, but not out of my memory.
And this goner was a special one, the one I loved the most.
Of all the things I only ask for this Lord
Let her have a wonderful year ahead
With both success and failures but with failures that she can
Learn and nurture from. On this very special day of her own
Bless and shower her with all your love and blessing.
Have a wonderful birthday and a great year ahead.Happy birthday Love.

The very thought that she tried make our friendship more real.
The world needs more people like her. The message was signed with love
and there was a picture of both of us smiling together.
I love you, Gef!

These are the things that are connected one way or another to my birthdays..

And today,

I feel like a child.

And it doesnt matter anymore what happens before this day,

Because today,

I'm at peace with the world.

6:09 AM

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I was bored because i couldn't find a poem for poverty for lit,
So instead of finding i decided to write one. But not about poverty.
HAHA!

My dying child

On bent knees, I placed my hands together,
Searching the heavens in the falling rain;
Why, God, is this the way of life?
Is this your way of ending pain?

Of a little soul who promised us joy,
When a thousand words cannot be said;
Yet you presented me, with much unfairness,
With a promise that was never made.

How could the world still spin?
When a infant will be taken this summer?
So I braced with a dying child of mine
For comes the start of our eternal slumber.

5:49 AM

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Just swing, just swing and never look back,
Stretch your hands and take it all;
But as heaven's tears fell onto dirt,
She stops.
She knew what it's like to fall.

Unlike what she thought, the world had failed her,
A life with existence of a zone;
But even if nothing was meant for her,
She conquered with faith alone.

5:08 AM

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The animes and mangas i grew up with:




The magical princess i was dying to be when i was 5,
Red Riding Hood Akazukin Cha Cha

Ahh yes, the man who talks fast without moving his mouth..
Speed Racer



Still, the best anime i've ever came across,
Cardcaptor Sakura

The first manga i've ever read. Nothing special but still,
Love For Venus



The one I'm currently on to. I think im beginning to like this one a lot.
Tsubasa RESERvoir of CHRoNiCLE

8:03 PM

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3 relaxing days in Bedok makes me more sane (:
That's because i bought 2 volumes of Tsubasa!!
Yeaahhh baby i'm onto Tsubasa now. But seriously, the anime stinks.
Sakura's anime's the best!! Aww i wanna go comic spree with xuan.
And there's just so much books i wanna read.
I realised there's 2 more books from Ahern that i haven't got my hands on.
Plus For One More Day by Mitch Albom,
My Best Friend's Girl, My Godmother all these books I WANNA READ.

Well anyway, sec one registration wasn't bad at all! except for the last part i got bored.
So did Haslinda. G1's nice, i love my junior classes although sometimes err..
Well Aisyah, Has and i spotted some look and act alikes from that class.
Very much like the 2g1 we have now. Amazing how the school classifies us.
I'm a little worried about cheer - they only have 3 days and the first day
we cant do much, making the situation quite pathetic, really.
There's one thing that i'm hoping i'll get:

Please, god, make me a peer leader for 1G1. Please?

HA! Im gonna finish my math today and that'll be the end of homework.
Listen to that?
IM QUEEN OF THE WORLD!!!!!!!!
And im gonna buy 2 more Tsubasa books soon. This week. For my birthday.
With my own money. Don't wanna burden my parent.
Guess that since im growing up, i might as well be a little more independent.
So i'll save up to June to buy more books, then save up to Nov to buy more books.
Best plan i've thought of, yet. Though i'll be waiting quite a while, I think it's worth it.

Forget 1st of Jan. I'm still in 2006 (:

7:47 PM

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